So far it seems, 2008 is not my year. It is more of a stepping stone between one life goal and the next, a preparative year. I have made many mistakes so far this year, many of which I am not proud of, but I hope that the second half of the year can be more predictive, more enjoyable and a better representation of who I am and who I hope to become. Although I feel disappointed at how little I have achieved in the past 8 months, in a sense I have achieved more in this time than if I had done what I had wanted in 2007. I now know how challenging life can be, the frustrations of living with other people, and being an adult in general. What's more is I have learned the general direction I need to go with my life, pursuing a creative career, and a university degree that matches. Although that was what my instinct was telling me all along, at least now I won't be second guessing myself and will put my whole heart into building a successful creative career for myself, rather than wondering what would have been if I settled down and attempted a normal job and a normal life for myself in Cairns. Not to say that this year has been without any positives, as I have made some great friends, built upon existing ones and had some unforgettable times and more to come.
So as for the remaining months of 2008, I will work my hardest to prepare solidly for 2009- the first year of the rest of my life xx.
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